Knowledge is Power , BUT THE REAL POWER… is what “WE” Do with it ~ now sit with it. Deep Breathe In ~ Deep Breathe Out…
The most provocative line from this weekend’s training was when M said “How good are you at getting you to do what you want you to do?” This hit me like a ton of blocks. I’ve been full of bullshit recently. I say I want to eat better and exercise more, but I don’t… Continue reading Listening to Ourselves (17 Nov 2019)
I am very excited to go through the history of Western Classical Music and examine its groundwater. I want to understand exactly how we got to where we are today. I want to be able to illustrate how most classical music efforts have mostly been about draining the lake without addressing the groundwater. I’m going… Continue reading History of Classical Music (16 Nov 2019)
I had an epiphany on Friday night. I read an article about the most recent season of Queer Eye, which takes place in Tokyo, Japan. It was an article written by a member of the Japanese queer community in which the author criticises the cultural ignorance and toxic stereotyping of this most recent season. As… Continue reading Queer Eye and The Practice (15 Nov 2019)
There are black people in the future. Racism has taken away the truth about history and my place in it. Racism has stolen authentic relationships with people of color from me. I am missing out on my most fulfilling and meaningful life because of racism. I am not taking this training to be “a good… Continue reading There Are Black People in the Future (20 Oct 2019)
I had a massage the day after this training and experimented with being an active participant in my massage. Instead of just lying back and existing in my head to avoid the pain, I tried participating psychologically in the confrontation and release of my tension. Music is all about tension and release. The tension is… Continue reading I Own My Body, I Own My Pain (19 Oct 2019)
It was revolutionary for me to realize during our second weekend of training that trauma can lodge itself in our bodies. Even generational trauma. I have often prided myself on my ability to live “in my head,” to completely disengage from bodily sensations. This has allowed me to tolerate pain with ease. I now realize… Continue reading Trauma Lives Below the Neck (18 Oct 2019)
Training has gotten me wondering how to exist outside of the “systems” within classical music without losing great art. How do we interrupt and break down some of the barriers I mentioned in my previous post? Do we stop performing problematic composers altogether? Does being a problematic artist automatically make your art problematic?
A list of borders in classical music that I now recognize as resulting from patriarchy/racism/capitalism… borders that prevent classical music from being accessible, inclusive, equitable, and long-lasting: Musical literacy The idea that one must be able to read and write Western notated music fluently in order to be taken seriously as a musician. The idea… Continue reading Borders in Classical Music (7 Sept 2019)
Equality means treating everyone the same. Perhaps treating everyone the way you want to be treated. The Golden Rule? Equity means treating everyone in such a way that allows success. Treating everyone the way they want to be treated. Don’t give me gold, give me wonderfully warm socks or a handwritten letter or a stocking… Continue reading The Warm Sock Rule (6 Sept 2019)
Before training: my body feels open, soft, strong, relaxed, calm, set into myself. I am thinking about the spa. My mind wanders to the hammam often. I notice my flexibility increasing through my kundalini practice, this has happened through breathing. I am finding new ways to nurture myself and new ways to love me. It… Continue reading Day 3: Raja Yoga Teacher Training with Yoga Roots on Location 9/8/19
I felt immense gratitude. In all honesty, I felt it the moment our session began on Day 1, and on Day 2, it was different. I felt acceptance, a deeper internal acceptance – that I was in the right place and that I was meant to be here, at this training. That saying, “your name has… Continue reading Day 2: Raja Yoga Teacher Training with Yoga Roots on Location 9/7/19
I have been searching for a yoga teacher training for years. Most of the programs that I researched I didn’t meet the requirements such as attending classes regularly with one particular yoga studio (I am self-taught). Another factor was the schedule, a number of programs, in my opinion, aren’t adult-friendly. In January, I stumbled upon… Continue reading Day 1: Raja Yoga Teacher Training 9/6/19
In high school I played the Caterpillar in our version of Alice in Wonderland. The main impetus for my character, was to encourage Alice to reflect on who she was and who she desired to be. I, for damn sure, had not answered this question for myself. Fast forward to present day. There are many… Continue reading Who are you?!
My energy right now is hot. In a good way. I feel like I just went to church and that folks who I have never met gave me a gentle yet effective slap in the face to snap myself out of poor internal habits, mind games, and harmful and negative perceptions of my own being.… Continue reading Third Friday • November 15, 2019
A stretch= heightened awareness. Leading movements with your muscles instead of your bones makes a huge difference while you’re making space and time to focus on your body. This dimension of self-awareness came about during our session with Mr. Eddie on body awareness and the true meaning of heightened awareness between our minds and bodies.
Stretch equals heightened awareness not pain Yoga helps to build flexibility and awareness Strength training builds muscle I loved all of this. Over the past couple of weeks, I have been very mindful of my posture and making sure that I stretch before working out and afterwards. I have been in pain and have developed… Continue reading Sunday, Oct. 20th
Video: Redlining and systematic racism I work with so many families dealing with housing issues. People are being evicted and unable to afford housing. It is a serious problem and many times I feel inadequate to helping their situation because their situation is also mine. I am not currently homeless or being evicted, but I… Continue reading Saturday, Oct. 19th
There are not words big enough to describe this last day, this day of birth and the death of ego, the humility in learning that you never stop learning, in experiencing the love that show you your truth and loves you through it. The stunning way in which hierarchical white supremacist thinking has worked itself… Continue reading Final Day- A beginning
A reflection on disability, a reflection on the words that we use, in consideration of even how we give presentations even. How do we make the content accessible? How do we consider disability even in breaking down the definition of the word. Our world is normalized for the perceived/visible majority without acknowledgement of the multiple… Continue reading November Day 2
So the final month, the final chapter, our final weekend, it is a bittersweet thing. To reflect on the IRI that come up for me- Ethnocentrism, tokenism, model minority competition. Which came first, how easily and quickly did I get socialized and indoctrinated in, how were these systems in place in my roots. How does… Continue reading November day 1
The growth that occurs over the space of a few months, the bonds that we have formed. Reflecting on one sentence that describes each person really gave an opportunity to reflect on how and with whom I have built connections. For some it was effortless to think of how to describe them, for others, i… Continue reading September day 3
The skin tone lesson was a beautiful experience and inspired me to immediately purchase books for the children in my sphere that celebrate who they are as they grow up in a world that may not otherwise support
“Breathe first, cuss em out later”- Miss J As we think about the types of teachers we want to be, we consider the idea of not taking your own class, a concept that for me is difficult depending on what I am teaching. In a restorative flow, I don’t have much difficulty doing this, but… Continue reading September Day 1
It took a long time coming and finally able to complete a business plan, to begin to put into words the vision you have for your future. I’ll be honest the idea of writing an obituary is a difficult one, what does that portend, if words are spells, what are you writing for yourself?
FOMO day 2, as you see the posts and messages from the group and yet are lost in the joy of a wedding celebration. Remembering to practice grounding in different moments, stay engaged in the breath, stay present and not overwhelmed.
FOMO in combination with the joy of celebrating a sisters wedding and union. A chance to reflect on what comes up for you as you celebrate this union in juxtaposition to one falling apart. How do you begin to embody the sutras in how you treat yourself and how you treat your sisters in this… Continue reading August Day 1
Whew, the release, the moment when you discover what it means to truly love yourself. This practice is not perfection, it takes practice but that moment, even if it does not last forever, that moment is enough to create the memory to unlock for yourself that experience so each time you feel it again, embody… Continue reading July Day 3
In consideration of how we teach yoga, of how we consider the trauma and the history that others bring into the studio space and also what you bring into the space. How do you teach from a trauma informed place if you do not love you and treat you from a trauma informed space
It is always a beautiful thing to come home to sisters, to look forward to the community that is building and growing, a certain steadfastness in the midst of an evolving personal storm
Being black My deep and rich history The rhythm I carry The glow in my skin The power of my ancestral mothers The culture, my culture My language Finding community, being held by community My hair, my crown My ever growing resilience