9/6/2019 First day of yoga teacher’s training was amazing. The 1st day of anything can set the tone of the process. Today was more introductory session of the participants and the training. We sat in a circle and one by one shared and surprisingly on the first day, folks shared intimately. It was perplexing how… Continue reading 1st Day
My major takeaways from lesson taught by Unoma, Kathryn, and Marietta: Strength without Instability. Flexibility without Instability Yoga is a practice of SELF INQUIRY. The practice of yoga is the practice of noticing what is existing in MY body. Inhale to get what you need. Exhale to get rid of what you don’t need. When… Continue reading Catching Up: Yoga Anatomy – Part 2
Oh my goodness, the resistance I’ve had to watching these videos! I’ve spent over a year dreading and procrastinating these videos. I’d start one from time to time, prickle, and then turn it off. I felt fully planted in my dislike/distrust of Leslie and Amy. The other morning I woke up at 6 am, started… Continue reading Catching Up: Yoga Anatomy – Part 1
It’s hard to fully express my deep gratitude for this community. Within it I have experienced possibility, love, truth, struggle, healing, movement, challenges, care, sharing, imagination, embodiment, joy, screaming laughter, and crying laughter. Growing up in the Catholic church I was told the congregation was a community. It never felt that way to me. I… Continue reading Catching Up: This Dear Community
(Sunday 12/20/20) I am amazed that for our final exam, I was paired with the exact person whom I needed to be paired with. We focused on the breath and one simple question while considering the boundary of the breath — “ask yourself why it’s there” — is opening up incredible discernment and healing. The… Continue reading We made it!
(Saturday 12/19/20) I was empowered and enlightened by the conversation around business and entrepreneurship. Some of the key points that stay with me: Imagining or even creating the circumstances of work that honor the seasons and even one’s personal cycle vs the white supremacy culture we currently live in Breaking down rate into how much… Continue reading Enterprise & serenity
(Friday 12/18/2020) One question that comes up for me is how many poses to integrate into my yoga classes. Leslie and Amy went through headstands and wheel. I certainly never see myself doing those poses. I think they make for some cool marketing, but I can’t speak to the physical benefits on a personal level. If… Continue reading How much is enough?
Wow. It’s odd to think that this will be my last blog post for the training. It feels good to be able to “check this off” my transcript, and I feel emotionally raw and drained and sad, and joyful and relieved, simultaneously. It was an interesting experience to have stuff to do for our final… Continue reading 12/20: Final Sunday and Graduation
Entrepreneurship and working for oneself has been modeled for me by my parents my entire life — both of my parents own their own businesses (and still do) while also having employment at companies they did not own. About three years ago, I started holding informational interviews with different people to think about how I… Continue reading 12/19: Final Saturday
I found it hard to fully encapsulate and give highest honor to my thoughts and feelings and responses to the prompts. Almost like the words will continue to pour out of my soul without any stopping point. I noticed some uncertainty and anxiety around the fact that I had to read the prompts multiple times… Continue reading YTT4 Final Exam Reflection
Final blog post? PSH. I refuse. This is weird! I am sad writing this. BUT ALAS. Shit gotta end so new shit can start. One of my biggest worries doing this training was that I would hurt someone else out of my own ignorance or racism. And I over these months, I watched graciously as… Continue reading Sunday, December 20, 2020
When I started this training, I was stuck in a place that I now see was holding me back not only from myself but from other better opportunities for my growth. On this day, one yogi said, “We can grow so much that we outgrow the spaces we are currently confined to.” This resonated with… Continue reading Saturday, December 19, 2020
I appreciated how the topic of consent arose in our conversation on this day, specifically how consent is a thread woven throughout our existence. Thinking about consent also makes me think about the challenges I’ve faced in being forced to be my own advocate. As a younger sibling with borderline overbearing family members, I have… Continue reading Friday, December 18, 2020
In learning how to reconnect with my body and unlearning my internalized white supremacy and racial superiority, I realized how out of alignment I am with my chakras, particularly my root, sacral, heart and third eye chakra. In reflecting on my journey of disconnection from my body, I think I’ve always had a difficult time… Continue reading 12/18: Final Friday
When I received the final exam link, I tried opening the document and I received a message that I needed to request access to the document. At first, I wondered if maybe this was actually the comprehensive exam — like the test was actually that there was no test. Once I did receive access, I… Continue reading Reflection: Comprehensive Exam
I was confused AF when I first read the questions. I read them several times and decided to employ a tactic I used when I was in school: start with what you DO know and work your way through. So I started off with my yoga outline, which now as I’m finishing my exam I… Continue reading Final Exam Reflection
The darkness overwhelms me I cry and I beg but the strength does not fulfill me. Walking this thin line Reality vs fantasy A fate I fear. Slicing and slashing causing a release. Pushed to my point There is no more. Constantly Fighting this world to do and to be. When nothing matters. What’s the… Continue reading Overwhelmed.
I don’t know why I get so much anxiety when thinking about the future. Am I afraid? Am I not ready? Either way, the future will come and what will happen will happen. I don’t know why I feel so anxious. I have greatness in me. Turning over and turning under. I have greatness in… Continue reading Anxious
I remember when I had my daughter and used her stroller everywhere we went. It didn’t dawn on me until then how inaccessible so many places were. Even now 8 years later places are still difficult to access with wheels. It’s very ablest and it makes me angry. When I’m struggling it reminds me of… Continue reading Ablest
I thought it appropriate to use my final two YogaRoots On Location blog posts to reflect and look forward. While I have used more than a few previous blog posts to enumerate, elaborate, and/or examine the growth I have experienced socio-emotionally within the Yoga Teacher Training, I have decided to use this particular post to… Continue reading Post-Graduation, New Years Resolutions
I thought it appropriate to use my final two YogaRoots On Location blog posts to reflect and look forward. While I have used more than a few previous blog posts to enumerate, elaborate, and/or examine the growth I have experienced socio-emotionally within the Yoga Teacher Training, I have decided to use this particular post to… Continue reading Post-Graduation, Year-End Accomplishments
I have had an entrepreneurial spirit since childhood. I love it but I have always been too busy with something else like school, extracurriculars, and children. I’ve also always been to afraid to really step out into it fully. I want to change that and am taking the steps to do that. I am working… Continue reading 10 Business
I feel so blessed to have met each person in this group. I am very thankful for Felicia and how she shows up for herself and for others. I have learned so much from everyone and it has helped me to be a better person; especially to myself. Before the training I was so hard… Continue reading Final
Sunday, December 20, 2020 Leading a class for a participant that meets their needs/requests with no preparation would have been incredibly intimidating for me at the start of this training. But, I felt calm and grounded as I went through this final experience. I noticed that my cohort partner and myself were able to hear… Continue reading Final Exam Reflection
Due to time constraints, we were not able to teach abbreviated versions of each other’s final exam. However, we were paired up and assigned the task of teaching a 10 minute class based on our partner’s expressed needs. I was partnered with My’Quella, and our thirty or fourty minutes together undoubtedly became some of the… Continue reading Brief Reflections on the Final Exam
I’ve said this before and I’m going to continue saying it, Ms. Felicia’s, Yoga Roots on Location’s raja yoga teacher training has been the best education I’ve experienced thus far in my journey. It has been the first and I’ll always remember and hold that close to me. This space, the people. Yeah, I’m thankful.
Pedestals: Mores specifically putting people on pedestals. I know I do this, mostly in terms of I want them to like me so try to interact with them in ways that facilitate that rather than just being me. that I’ve done this past year, is compounded by the fact that I put a specific person… Continue reading Sunday 11/22/2020
I’m a pastor’s kid from a long line of pastor’s kids, on both sides of my family. There are many ideologies that I’m working through and finding peace with, but one that I am grateful I’ve not had to work through, at least not in the way many people with a similar background have, is… Continue reading Saturday 11/21/2020
December 19, 2020 I felt both convicted and curious by the observation shared about the persistent sadness of white people in this work. I recently had an experience with my Self in which through both shadow and meditative work, I recognized the ways I get stuck in gloom and grief. When I’m in this place,… Continue reading Power and Joy
Friday, December 18, 2020 Reflecting on how “our bodies hold the score” and the energy points of our chakras, I’m struck by the stories and truths my body is revealing to me. Coinciding with the start of my journey of deconstructing my worldview and the narratives told to me, my gut and digestive health were… Continue reading My Unraveling into Self