Today. Wow. This day was rough. As our conversation started, it became clear we were going to talk about money. This is a topic that I have dreaded talking about in public spaces. Partially because we have been taught to not talk about it in public spaces. But this is different. YROL offers different energy… Continue reading Sixth Sunday • February 23, 2020
Our discussion of human rights gave me a new outlook on how the set of rights is not actually built for all humans (shocker). It was pretty depressing to understand that even the basic H U M A N rights that we often fall back on are flawed, outdated, and horribly biased. I wish we… Continue reading Sixth Saturday • February 22, 2020
On this day, we spent time exploring Strengths Finder traits. I was struck by how we were given the space and opportunity to designate strength traits to ourselves as opposed to allowing the actual test to do so. We were also asked to define our top 5 traits. This practice made me think about how… Continue reading Sixth Friday • February 21, 2020
The training was very informative and comprehensive in scope. I will use this information to monitor my own mental landscape and assist other when appropriate and given permission. I thought about how I could immediately use this awareness and skills.
Appreciated review of graduation requirements. As a linear thinker; I was “stretched” in thinking about how I would manage everything. Am being more intentional about listening, processing and breathing during new situations…
Living in a distressed neighborhood with several mental health service sites ; daily sightings of folks in distress made me appreciate the opportunity to receive this training. I was not aware that this training existed. My thinking is that we all have neuroses of some type; by the grace of God go I.
Began study of Anatomy video, Unit Four-The Spine Introduced terms; Stira and Suka; protection and movement respectively Learned detailed overview of the evolution of the spine; is central nervous system of the human body which requires structure; operates in concave and convex manner; yet, flexibility allows peripheral nerves to emit and communicate to areas throughout… Continue reading Sunday, February 23, 2020
As follow-up from yesterday’s anatomy discussion; revisited importance of learning and understanding the 8-limbed path of Raja Yoga- Niyamas (intra-personal,) Yamas (interpersonal), Asana (physical postures,) Pranayama (breathing.) Pratyhara (sensory,) Dharana (concentration,) Dhyana (mediation,) and Samadhi (self-realization). Viewed Rue Paul video segment about cultivating one’s unique self What do you emphasize as a construct of self??… Continue reading Saturday, February 22, 2020
Opened February training by continuing Anatomy module Unit 3; Strength, Flexibility and Movement- very informative Revisited Asana; relevant Raja yoga terminology, physical posture Viewers asked to consider above as “coiling inward” for inquiry with self, while inhaling and exhaling – to be interested in self , “Live Your Life”-actively undoing; Discussed how flexible is enough?… Continue reading Friday, February 21, 2020
“The pain of missing you is a beautiful reminder of the joy of loving you.” — Dean Jackson “Somewhere in the middle of our happy moments, we all sigh a little in the memory of someone we miss.” – supta sengupta “There is no pain so great as the memory of joy in the present… Continue reading Questioning “Joy”
I’m learning the necessity of simply accepting when someone says, “I love you.” What is the purpose of questioning how much, for what, under what conditions, and so forth? From moment to moment, I love and I am loved. Toni Morrison wrote, “You dont deserve love just because you want it. You can only earn… Continue reading Accepting Love Pt. I
I can feel myself starting to second guess and ridicule myself — that’s not okay. It just isn’t. Ari. You have worked your fucking ass off and TBH, you work your fucking ass off everyday — there isn’t a moment not dedicated to personal and communal expansion. Your connection to the universe — via the… Continue reading … Interrupting Myself
Sunday, February 23rd I woke up feeling anxious and was having a hard time identifying and working the anxiety through. So, today ended up being an emotional day for me. The discussion on money brought up my issues of control and feelings of shame and fear. I named my need to get to the root… Continue reading Feeling Seen
Saturday, February 22nd Today was packed with a lot of learning and things to reflect on. There were three big moments for me that I have been reflecting on. The first is in our discussion on human rights, it was pointed out that our discussion was a practice of being a critical lover. Being a… Continue reading Knowing Your Authentic Self
Friday, February 21, 2020 The question “why did you come tonight” started our evening as we did a check-in. Over the last 6 months, it feels like so much of who I thought I was is unraveling and I’m being stretched and stretched beyond what I thought was possible for me. Being apart of this… Continue reading Why Did You Come Tonight?
Money is really, really hard to talk about. I learned today that this may be the case for most people. Speaking my truth about my experiences with money, and the generational wealth that has benefitted my life thus far and will benefit me even more so in the future, was incredibly difficult. There is so… Continue reading February 23
I came in on Saturday energized and ready for the training. It was sunny and warmer and I woke up on the right side of the bed. My mood shifted when we began talking about our universal human rights. I got (paraphrasing) the “right to not be held in jail or removed from one’s country.”… Continue reading February 22
I’ve done StrengthsFinder before for my previous job about 2 years ago. At that time, I got developer, positivity, individualization, learner and discipline. When we did the activity together as a group and picked our own top 5, I actually didn’t have learner or discipline on my list. It’s interesting to compare the difference between… Continue reading February 21
I enjoyed the conversation we had regarding money. I couldn’t believe how powerful that discussion was and am grateful for the 30 unique and distinct relationships with money that were shared. I sometimes allow myself to daydream about what it would be like if everyone in the world woke up and had a bank balance… Continue reading Money Dreams
I had the opportunity to resolve hostility toward one of my fellow yogis this weekend. I am aware of how my energy can be translated and transferred toward others. When I am happy and excited it’s like a storm of rainbows every where. When I’m tired or upset, literally a cloud of gloom falls around… Continue reading Get it in the open.
This weekend was probably one of the most intense we have shared thus far. In particular I found myself being confronted with confronting texturism. It was a unique experience where perceived conflict was worked through and resolved, however as someone addicted to rationalization, I still have one more thing to add. The word “juicy” was… Continue reading Juicy Juicy
In the activity where we drew different systems of oppression on the body, I shared with the larger group about how synagogues/Jewish institutions are isolating Jews of Color by increasing police security and prioritizing the safety of white Jewish bodies over those of Jews of Color. I felt nervous while sharing this with the group… Continue reading January 19
“We have the strength to change the things that we can, we have the serenity to surrender to thinks we cannot…breathing shows us our possibilities” (YogaAnatomy Unit 2). Thinking about breathing not only as a necessary function to keep us alive, but as a representation of all that it means to be alive was so… Continue reading January 18
Meditating for 45 minutes? I felt my anxiety creeping up as soon as that was mentioned. My monkey mind would not stop. I couldn’t sit still. I was so uncomfortable that my back almost started spasming and I had to lean forward into a forward fold to subside the discomfort. When it was over, I… Continue reading January 17
Final anatomical topic-Muscles Learned that there are three movements -concentric-muscle contracts -ecentric-muscle extends -and isometric-muscle stays the same. Learned importance of balance; not overstretching and avoiding rigidity As yogis we are to encourage people to “experience” their bodies as perception of self.
Continuing with Anatomy study Strength, flexibility and mobility As an elder citizen, I am acutely aware of the importance of these anatomical topics. The average 60+ individual regularly speaks of pain and general stiffness, say, upon awakening. I want to focus my practice on this age group and will work to retain this important information.
Anatomy-Unit 2 and 3 What struck me with today’s training was how “a small amount of incorrect information can ultimately be dangerous.” We are continuing with the formal study of anatomy which I now understand is critical for conducting safe and informed yoga classes. In module 2, I was intrigued by the point that “breathing… Continue reading Jan. 18, 2020
For a really long time, I’ve hated my body. When I was little, I hated that I was short. Kids would make fun of me for being small, or short, or not fast enough, or whatever other physical failing was present at the time. When I became a teenager, I had pretty bad acne and… Continue reading White male body image issues – J. Dale Shoemaker – Sunday, January 19, 2020
The big realization I had on this day of the training was actually just a basic scientific fact: Air will always move from an area of high pressure to low pressure. It seeks balance. At sea level, we learned, air pressure is 14.1 pounds per square inch. When our lungs have no air in them,… Continue reading The universe wants to keep you alive – J. Dale Shoemaker – Saturday, January 18, 2020
I came into this weekend very fired up and ready to learn a lot of new things. I’m currently involved in a few exciting organizing efforts and I came to Pittsburgh with a fire in my belly ready to take on the systems that oppress us all. I wrote this in my notebook: I am… Continue reading Fire in my belly – J. Dale Shoemaker – Friday, January 17, 2020