Why do we/I need so much "proof"? What does it mean to use the same tool (science) for evil & for righteous work? What are the intentions? Is the difference an intention of Love? Why can't we trust our fellow humans when they say they are human? Why do we need to prove it with… Continue reading Month 5 – Saturday
Felicia evoked my mother this night. My mom would often say, 'My job as a parent is to raise you not to need me'. She did a very good job of that. When she died I took that notion even further to mean that I was not to need anything or anyone. That has been… Continue reading Month 5 – Friday
Something is clicking between my understanding of the physical practice and the other Raja limbs. It is always stressed that yoga should not be physically uncomfortable but that in other areas of practice we must lean into our discomfort. I personally rely heavily on analogies. Analogies work for me because in our greater oneness with… Continue reading Month 4 – Sunday
How do we exist with ease? By knowing ourselves. By observing ourselves and our relationship with our own boundaries and comfort. Observe with acceptance rather than criticism. I’m easily fooled by dysfunction. My family has so fully accepted their subtle dysfunctions that they exhibit a false image of ease. Familiar lies can seem so easy… Continue reading Month 4 – Saturday
The room feels different. Hope feels present for me in a way it hasn’t before. Laughing is happening more freely. Are these just my feelings? Acceptance is happening for me with more ease. I feel less fear. The absence of fear has made room for acceptance? Practice Practice Practice Practice Practice Practice Practice Practice Practice… Continue reading Month 4 – Friday
The God in me is not merely connected to the God in others. It is the same God and this God is in everything. When we inflict pain on anything outside our earthly bodies we are inflicting pain on our God, on our true selves. We destroy and neglect and cannibalize our selves, our God.
How do I use my gatekeeping powers? Not always well. I strive for transparency but that isn't enough. "Reactionary" is not enough. I default to sharing power - I love this. As a worker, I need to be more organized and prepared to share tools. I need to assess & measure those who might be… Continue reading Month 3 – Friday
How do I hold both the harm I cause and the love I have for the Black people in my life?
I felt very troubled by how much blockage I felt with the conflict in the room. I could not find my honest reaction. Why could I solidly see the broken contract by only one person (a WOC) when the other woman broke a contract as well (white woman)? I couldn't feel it clearly. I later… Continue reading Month 2 – Saturday
I need to get in touch with the self-love that forms my foundation.
Patriarchy found its ultimate tool for domination with racism. Racism is a disease that infects us all. White people are the carriers and Black people are inflicted with the symptoms. Whiteness is also a disease that has infected me. It has dehumanized me. All people have racial bias and all white people have advantage and… Continue reading Month 1 – Sunday
I was equally attracted to the yoga and anti-racist elements of Felicia's training. I had never considered doing yoga teacher training but the dual system along with her yogi community is what drew me in. the coupling always felt important, useful, elevated...but after the first day of anti-racist training, it now seems vital. I, a… Continue reading Month 1 – Saturday
Whenever I'm feeling crushed by patriarchy and capitalism and ashamed of my part in white supremacy I'm reminded that groups of women are regularly subverting these systems with honesty, intimacy, compassion, vulnerability, love, and truth. These subversions are everywhere - public & private, small, and mighty. These are revolutions for our souls and they give… Continue reading Month 1 – Friday