"Scarcity mindset creates criminals because our souls know we aren't getting our due". What does it mean to have to live in a society that labels you as a criminal for trying to survive in a a place that doesn't support you living?
This weekend was my 3rd anti-racist workshop/training outside of YogaRoots. I really appreciated how this workshop focused on empowerment. It supported me to focus on how I was holding myself back and see a lot of the disempowerment that I have internalized in a way I wasn't able to before. It gave me the courage… Continue reading Ariel 11/17/19
Instead of ignoring, fighting, opposing, shaming, or trying to tame my ego I learned to acknowledge the permanence of ego and am making the commitment to understand and honor it so it can work for me and with me as a part of me versus against me.
Today I genuinely realized how deeply racism has distracted me from my own power. I kind of feel like Captain Marvel when she realized she's been fighting with "one hand tied behind her back".
I’ve been stretching wrong for most of my life. This. Is. Mind Blowing. I despised stretching because it has always felt wrong. In middle school my coaches forced painful stretches on me and ignored my concerns and eventually so did I. I had forgotten that when I was younger stretching felt as natural as breathing.… Continue reading Ariel 10/20/19
Woah buddy, never have I ever understood the significance of redlining, segregation, and property discrimination until today after watching this video. And wooahhhhhhh buddy, I made so many connections about how racism manifests in Pittsburgh specifically. I've been reflecting a lot on how racism manifests in different areas of the country and I feel that… Continue reading Ariel 10/19/19
Today I’ve been reflecting on the idea that we all ingest racism. The idea that we all come into this world as one race, the human race but once we enter how we are conditioned to place value on things like shade of our skin and through our experiences realizes where we and those that… Continue reading Ariel 10/18/19
Today I think I learned about humility. I thought I had a grasp on humility before but the idea that there are all these cells, tissues, organs, and systems working within me and with each other with no demands of appreciation or gratitude just doing what needed to be done has given me a new… Continue reading Ariel 9/8/19
Today I felt really open. I feel like I was offered the space to accept that my experiences may not align with the info/knowledge/wisdom that was about to be shared with me through yoga anatomy but that that's ok and I only need to take what I find useful. As a teacher I often speak… Continue reading Ariel 9/7/2019
Seeing many of the yogis in this cohort was really nice as we haven’t really seen each other since everything with COVID-19. It was refreshing to hear how people are resonating with the components of Yoga Anatomy in relation to self-isolation and uncertainty of what the future will bring. Some of what I’m learning is… Continue reading May 16, 2020
Today was the first day of yoga training. I honestly had no idea what to expect. I joined this training because so many people within my community that I love and trust had already done it and encouraged me to do it as well. What really resonated with me today was the idea that we… Continue reading Ariel 9/6/2019
(Sunday, 2-23-2020) “What is your relationship with money and how does it make you feel?” My questions coming out of this raw discussion: Why is money so pivotal? Why does it make most everyone – those who have it and those who don’t – so miserable? What are the unwritten rules about money? What are… Continue reading Money, honey
(Saturday 2-22-2020) We looked at human rights – e.g. Right to seek a safe place to live, Right to a nationality, Right to a trial, Right to own your own things – and where they show up in your body. We did a similar exercise the first weekend where we looked at the eight-limb path… Continue reading Feeling for healing
(Friday, 2-21-2020) We explored the Strengths Finder – so many different strengths! Individualization – "intrigued by the qualities of each person" – didn’t come up for me as a strength but I do find it so fascinating how we’re all so different with different strengths and how it blends into community and how it’s all… Continue reading Authoring what’s next
I was unable to be present for this weekend’s yoga training and spoke with several other individuals about their experience of the weekend. This entry is in response to a third one of those discussions. In this conversation I resonated with two areas: dualism in relation to habits and performative behavior. The yogi-in-training noted that… Continue reading November 17, 2019
I was unable to be present for this weekend’s yoga training and spoke with several other individuals about their experience of the weekend. This entry is in response to another one of those discussions. A different concept I discussed with another yogi-in-training was the presentation of implicit bias and explicit bias via the metaphor of… Continue reading November 16, 2019
I was unable to be present for this weekend’s yoga training and spoke with several other individuals about their experience of the weekend. This entry is in response to one of those discussions. One of the concepts that was talked about was understanding your accurate location. What is my accurate location? I have many shoulds… Continue reading November 15, 2019
Money or lack there of equals anxiety Needs were met, money strategically shifted around, bills timed to paycheck Medical bills and medications, high even with insurance – but need them to function Threat of debt collectors hanging over parents heads because of my surgery Vacations, not really, not the “normal” kind, always for family Feel guilty… Continue reading Sunday 2/23/2020
Critical, loving critique (Criticism and critique, I cringe) How are things good, how can we improve How can I improve? Be more present, be more authentic? With myself and with others Hiding in shame, feeling less than Taking too much space, but not enough space Here for me, but deciding factor for someone else Don’t… Continue reading Saturday 2/22/2020
Perception of Expectations Paralyzing, Debilitating, Avoidance Shoulds, Projecting Limiting connection Making assumptions, People pleasing Deep breath Who am I? What do I want? How do I want to show up? Deep breath Follow through
Joints, mobility, making space Relationships are a dance of learning and growing, Making space for self and other Supporting movement and mobility, Community organizing, many joints working together Where am I in that? Often passive – a socket, supporting and stable, but not acting Growing edge – shift to a joint, moving and acting
Breath Breathing Making Space Natural, yet not I teach belly breathing, clinically that can calm people But leading an experience and giving an expected outcome can be harmful Shifting language, allow space for personal experience Suggest, but leave open Bulging stomachs Normal, healthy Making space for air Constricted stomachs, Control, rigid, perfection, often me… Bulging… Continue reading Saturday 1/18/2020
Community Conversation Connection Silence Stillness Awareness Vibrations of movement Do I notice it? Did I make them? Balancing inward focus and outside awareness Mind wandering Bring it back Need to balance staying connected with self-care Challenging Rewarding Community
Honoring our bodies, such an important concept. So is honoring who we are, at our core. I honor my body by listening to my body and honoring what my body needs, then taking action to make sure I meet my needs. And for this weekend with my yoga teacher training, I was teleconferenced in because… Continue reading Day 13: Raja Yoga Teacher Training with Yoga Roots on Location
After arriving after the deep and heavy and emotional conversation about money was had I arrived. I taught at Shuman and CISP for the majority and was ready to go home. Looking into each other’s eyes was the most comfortable thing to do truly on the basis of proximity and vulnerability that encompassed the moment. … Continue reading Scared money don’t make no money…..but integrity does. Do you have it?
Lord Jesus, when mom asked what your intentions are with training before doing the Human Rights Exploration I listened intently on what people shared and measured them against the actions I had seen. That’s who I am. Someone who compares. Working on it…. It was intriguing to do the Human Rights Exploration as a group… Continue reading What’s your intentions with this training?
Top 5 current strengths with my own versions of meaning: Connectedness: making connections to other humans and topics to bring about truth and joyResponsibility: taking ownership of my actions and Learner: researching and engaging in new ways of being through experiences and conversation.Communicator: communicating my truth each moment. Speaking positivity into myself and othersDeliberative: choosing joy… Continue reading Strengths and Intentions
Today. Wow. This day was rough. As our conversation started, it became clear we were going to talk about money. This is a topic that I have dreaded talking about in public spaces. Partially because we have been taught to not talk about it in public spaces. But this is different. YROL offers different energy… Continue reading Sixth Sunday • February 23, 2020
Our discussion of human rights gave me a new outlook on how the set of rights is not actually built for all humans (shocker). It was pretty depressing to understand that even the basic H U M A N rights that we often fall back on are flawed, outdated, and horribly biased. I wish we… Continue reading Sixth Saturday • February 22, 2020
On this day, we spent time exploring Strengths Finder traits. I was struck by how we were given the space and opportunity to designate strength traits to ourselves as opposed to allowing the actual test to do so. We were also asked to define our top 5 traits. This practice made me think about how… Continue reading Sixth Friday • February 21, 2020